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Tuesday, November 19, 2002

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XBox was fun, link cable was shoddy - hooked up the router, but with 1 too few ethernet cables we were dead in the water for internet multiplayer. We still had fun with some 2 x 2 (system link) and 4 player games on the new 42" 16:9 HD Hitachi. My TV does fine... but makes me wish for an HD.

I've gotten myself into a pickle of sorts. Details shall be spared for the sake of my sanity.
However, I must remember to sort things before jumping in. You're too busy trying to stay afloat when you attempt to do both. .:sigh:.
It's tough, because I know exactly what I need to do in one situation... and I'm totally lacking of anything to give for the unexpected, though (after I thought about it) completely obvious, issue at hand. What to say to what you promised... does that make "your word" invalid because something else came up? No, my excuse is their readiness... that they have a bit of a ways to go. I see my point and I can call my bullshit at the other. It's a valid reason, but it's such a tough call. It means that I did something completely unexpected, on the fly, and have to explain something that I've never (and am certainly not getting any closer to) been able to explain. Feelings are feelings, how do I explain so that I can still maintain my sanity, other's sense of self-worth, and my own comfort by allowing things to have some semblence of normality -- before I went and threw my wrenches, that is.

I also have to wonder how to phrase things, and I'll be thinking about it the whole time I'm waiting to say something. I just want it over and done with... out of my head. However for the sake of keeping the moment -- I'll refrain, for the time being. Crossing wires is hard, refrain not just for the good in your heart... for the simplicity it brings.

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