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Saturday, March 30, 2002

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"Step inside my mind" the blog-vertisement states... *sigh*

I know I don't get it, I am fairly confident that the majority doesn't get it... but I think I have common sense. Unfortunately that seems to set me apart. Granted: one of my faults - everything has to be done my way. That's rather harsh, I'm quite non-harsh, flexible, open-minded, and willing to learn. I will do it my way unless there is good evidence to show me otherwise. Simply saying is not enough -- you need to show me, I need proof.

Tangability is something I never got with religion. I tuned to to nature and in turn had my spirituality and my tangibility. Give it whatever face you would like, hold it high as you will... but if there is really a force that wants us to be happy -- they want to be happy as well. I see the connection and harmony that nature already has... we've just seemed to lose that somewhere along the way. My brother has found this path as well, he before I, quite different experiences, but with a lot of the same conclusions.

There is so much I want, so much I need... and most of that is education, or will come with it.
I have my goal(s), and I'm so close. It just requires that final step... which it isn't enough to say simply requires effort, it requires time, and it requires effort to have the time. I work for myself, I see my accomplishments, and I'm glad. I really don't hold much faith in the "now, now, now" policy... I've seen the rewards that carefull planning can reap. It didn't come without sacrifice, nor without effort. Held true then, I just need the initial "oomph" normally citing: "when I'm comfortable" as my timeline -- and that almost seemed plausible for a while.

There's so much change that has to be done, why would anyone bring unnecessary change upon themselves?
it's 6:18am.
whew.

haha, just saw previous "note to self"
it's 6:22

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